Anywhere but Here

Hi. I am feeling completely and utterly frantic, but yet lazy, and TOTALLY RESTLESS today. I have no sufficient explanation. I only know that this bizarre mood is leaving me feeling as though I need to blog now before I have a nervous breakdown this week and forget to get around to it.

This past weekend served to be round number two (back-to-back) in the category of "get no more than 4 hours of sleep in an entire weekend" challenge. On Friday night, some of my best friends from Mount Marty who are located around the state for the summer made the journey to Yankton. Of course, we began the evening at DQ with the most chocolately blizzards ever and ended up at a friend's house in Tyndall where we stayed until 4:30 a.m, at which time I panicked because I had to work at 9:00 in the morning and we still had to drive home, attempt to get some sleep, shower, and show up with somewhat of a functioning brain. Therefore, we left and I crawled into bed at 5:00 a.m. only to be rudely awakened two hours later for my shower. Let's just say Saturday was a LOOONG, miserably boring, slow day at work. So, needing a refreshing evening of sleep, I decided it would be wise to make the two hour trip home and then go to the drive-in movies with my brother and a bunch of friends from TEC. It was incredibly wonderful to see and hug all of those amazing people - so wonderful in fact that one of my newest friends, Anne, spent the evening at my house where we talked until somewhere around 5:00 a.m. before falling into exhausted sleep and waking up 2 hours later for church. Needless to say, I was quite exhausted come yesterday afternoon and my drive back to Yankton was a challenge.

So, today I fear I am suffering the side-effects of minimal sleep. I am irritable and restless and feel as though 87 things are going to plant themselves on my to-do list and I'll never accomplish it all in time. I DESPERATELY NEED to make myself study for the MCAT as I am taking it next Thursday and have barely cracked open the book, but my heart is just not in it. I need to sit down and just sleep, maybe process all of the great and thought-provoking things I experienced at TEC. I need to work on my brother's scrapbook, do some things for my tobacco coalition job, call friends who I have waited far too long to inquire about....I feel as though I should be anywhere but where I am at whatever moment I am thinking it today. And, my most consuming thought is that I just want to take off, on a completely random and spontaneous roadtrip to the east coast. I'd skip work tomorrow and a few random other appointments this week and be back for work on Friday. I just want to go to North Carolina for no reason other than I want to go (and once there jump into the ocean and feel instantly refreshed and alive and young).

But....I cannot find any friends who will share my crazy urge to do something so completely irresponsible. So, instead I am off for a long overdue visit with a friend and then to supper with a group of friends, hopefully some time for piano practice in there... And this week if you don't here for me, pray that I am STUDYING!!